Hard to believe

You know how everyone says.. I can't belive my baby is however old they say.. or i can't believe its been 8 months its flown by etc etc..

Well for me, it did not fly by. at 6 months it definitely FELT like it had been 6 months.. 6 months of sleepless nights, exhaustion, pain, upside life, learning new routines, juggling work and home. everything seemed that long. When I look at other aspects of my life though, that is what flew by. thats 6 more months i've been married, 6 more months i've been at my job, 6 more months i've owned a house. etc. and that is what flew by for me.

After about 6 months it all of a sudden changed, now its flown by so fast. Once she started crawling and smiling and laughing and learning its been so fun and is now just wow, now i understand what they mean, but it wasn't like it for her first few months. I think part of that might have been contributed to the baby blues but who knows.

At first, i felt like having a baby sucked. And now I love her with a love that is the most intense, amazing feeling I had no idea a feeling like this could be real. Now she is almost 1 and i think the time is just going to fly even faster than it has the past couple months.

Bunco

So about a year and a half ago I was invited to play Bunco with some ladies in my neighborhood. It was a little weird the first few times, then I started to love it! Getting together once a month with women to chat and have fun did a lot for me! Since I just come home from work and hubby is always gone since we work opposite schedules, it was nice for me to interact with them and i started to look forward to it. Well now because I work so late I don't get to go anymore :( i'm sad

Well.. I signed up to host months ago so i decided to still host this month. It was my turn to host on tuesday. And can I just tell you i was totally scared! i have never done anything like this i've never planned a party or an event and i'm not creative and I was just stressing and freaking out.

I have to tell you what happened leading up to it. but i'll share photos first. It turned out great. I did a black/white theme and had it outside in my backyard

These would be mini oreo cheesecakes, can you say yum?

Cookies and cream popcorn, it was amazing.

After it was all said and done i look back and think why did i stress so much? but i have to work and find time to clean my whole house and yard and watch the baby and plan a party. so it wasn't easy.

After the game we sat around my firepit and chatted and made smores. it was so fun!

So my truck has been having problems and I had taken it to the shop and just got it out but as soon as i got it back it started having problems again. so monday i get off work and have so much to do to get ready for bunco, buying the gifts and the food and cleaning etc. so drove up to TJ maxx in orem to buy the gifts (like 8pm), when i came out my truck wouldn't start. I had Samarah with me and someone came over and jumped me. well.. i barely made it out of the parking lot. my truck died in the middle of the road. I couldn't get it in neutral to push of road.. yadda yadda long story short sat in road over an hour, brother came, towed me to shop at like 10 at night. neice drove me and samarah to walmart to buy stuff, they were out of half the stuff i needed for dessert, samarah was screaming, tired, had a full diaper i had no diapers with me.. didn't get home till past 11. i'm thinking F this i'm not hosting tomorrow. but i woke up tuesday and everything worked out! had to leave work a few hours early to get everything ready and buy the stuff i needed that they didn't have at walmart

As a side note.. my garden is growing!!!
Remember the before?

Now! check it out! i have peas. lettuce. tomatoes. broccoli. onions. corn. carrots. zuchinni. squash. cucumbers. I can't wait till i can eat the stuff!

And my flower beds are growing and looking great, i just need to plant more flowers!

A few random things about Samarah

She has gotten pretty good at eating big girl food

She loves pretty much everything we give her. She loves vegetables and especially Pizza Sauce!!!!

She is crawling like crazy and getting into everything, she loves the dog food

She got in her lil baby whale pool for the first time! She looked so damn cute in her lil swimsuit!

This blog is pretty much about Samarah but that is all our life is really! we don't do much else! I love this baby girl more than anything! She is 10 months already! I can't believe she is almost 1. I can't wait to see what she learns and does next

Hot Air Ballons

So I woke Samarah up at the buttcrack of dawn to go see the hot air balloons. I felt so bad waking her up! We ate pancakes and went down to see the balloons in Springville. She fell asleep on the way there so i had to wake her up AGAIN i felt so bad.

At first she was scared and ketp looking around almost in a panick but then after awhile she just watched. I think overall she liked.

Haha this pic is funny because you know how we call her ham? well there is a ham behind our ham :)

Samarah and one of my good friends Holly! Holly got up at the buttcrack to come with. so cool :)

The balloons didn't go up in the air though! I was so sad. It didn't seem that windy but maybe it was up high. I was really bummed. But that is ok, we can go next year!

(I don't know how to make the pictures go the right way, sorry)

She was staring at a balloon being blown up

My mom woke up and came too! Samarah still scared a bit lol

I think it'd be cool to go up in a hot air balloon but i dunno cuz it seems kind of freaky!

One of Chris's ideas to propose was to go up in a hot air balloon and have the words 'will you marry me' on the ground.. but he told me about it so he said he couldn't use it for me.. haha damn that would have been neat.

We went home and napped for a few hours after this early morning rendevouz lol

My Dad

I love my dad. Father day is coming up, i never thought to do a post in May for my mom but May was kind of crazy. I will do one for my mom later. I want to dedicate a post to my dad

I came along a littttlllee bit later then the rest of the kids... My brother is 8 1/2 years older than me.. my oldest sibling was 18 when I was born. So.. my dad is kinda older! When I was younger, it always surprised him that I would not make him sit in the car when i went to my friends or whatever. He still appreciates that to this day.. but for me it was nothing, i loved my dad and didn't care what people thought.

Don't worry, this post will have pics

Things that my dad loves to do
-Chop trees down. Oh my gosh, he is obsessed, really. He used to do it when he was a kid and he keeps saying he is going to stop and never does.
-Build and create things with wood
-Ride a bicycle

Isn't is so dumb that we don't learn all the things our parents tried to teach us till after we have moved out... THEN we appreciate all the things they tried pounding in our heads.

Some things my dad taught me
-Don't walk over things that are in your way, pick them up and move them.
-Clean up as you go, its always harder later when you are tired.
-plug things in the bottom outlet, dont' ask, i didn't get it but now i do
I appreciate all of these so much now that I have a house.

So many more.

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My dad has Parkinsons, and it is so hard to watch this stupid disease slowly disable him. He is still a machine (all 115 pounds of him) but just the little things he can't do anymore and to know that it is only going to get worse. UGH. its so hard. If he keeps busy, his hands and arms dont' shake so bad.. so he works himself too hard these days and I can't help like i used to cuz of Samarah..

Sorry this was supposed to be a post of good things.. I love my dad and I hope that I can enjoy every minute of the years I have left with him. He is such a good dad and I am so thankful for him.

I LOVE YOU DADDY!!