Easter!

So it was Samarah's first easter this year! It didn't really feel like easter.. i think when she gets older it will feel more like it, as will other holidays. Holidays just aren't the same when you a) aren't with your family b) don't have kids or don't have kids old enough to care.... she is too little to care.. so we didn't decorate eggs or anything. We just hung out in the BEAUTIFUL weather and enjoyed our little family time! My niece took some cute pics while we were hangin out outside!!

Protecting her lil head from a sunburn!

haha i love this picture. her teeth are too cute

Mommy and Samarah

Can you say CUTE?

Our hands and feet! Random but actually a cute pic

Hmm... what is that puppy doin

Puppy love!

I'm stoked next year I think she will be old enough to decorate eggs and find them! I can't wait!

I feel bad though,  I think she got a rash from sitting on the grass and not on a blanket! I feel so bad! :( I should have known better. Sorry Samarah!

Garden!

Chris built me some amazing garden beds last summer! When he finished I was like 8 months prego though.. so needless to say i did not use them. But I am going to use them this year and I am so excited I can't wait! I planted peas on monday! We shall see how I do.

The area before we started....

He made them tall so i dont' have to hardly bend over! what a nice hubby!

He lined them with plastic to keep the wood dry

We filled the bottom with green waste to help mulch with dirt!

I went a little too far with the round up...

I will add pictures if the stuff i plant decides to grow! i hope so because i love fresh stuff from the garden!

Why I love my dog

I love my dog for many reasons and i think she is a fantastic dog for many reasons.

She is my my running, hiking, walking, sitting, sleeping, eating, biking, anything companion.

 She is my best friend. She loves me no matter what. Doesn't matter if I had to spank her for getting in the trash, she waits patiently for me to be done being mad at her so she can come lick me again.

She is always so excited to see me, whether i have been gone 5 minutes, or a whole day.

She loves my cat.

She didn't used to like Samarah, but she does now, and that means a lot.

She never gets sick of spending time with me or Chris

If I am carrying something big and she is laying across the hallway or walkway, she moves! (my dad really loves that quality about her)

When she is outside, she doesn't bark at people who walk by. (unless i am outside, then she is protecting me!)

She doesn't leave the yard, even if the gate is open. She does not dig.  She does not jump on people.

I can leave food sitting on the coffee table sometimes even the floor and if we forget and leave, she does not eat it till we get home and tell her she can have it!!!!

HER QUIRKS:

She LOVES to be under blankets! She is so funny if we have a blanket on our lap and hanging off she noses any part of her body under it that will fit. She tries like hell to get totally under it.

We CAN'T cure her of licking! She is so hilarious she licks the wall, she licks the couch she licks anything that she happens to be next to. And she licks us like crazy!

She likes to fall asleep on her back, usually its all paws up though.

Working in the job I do, i see a lot of dogs that do really frustrating things. and it makes me more and more grateful that I have such a good dog! She definitely isn't perfect, but i'll take the licking and occasional trash diggging over barking, jumping, peeing in the house, digging under the fence, chewing, and various other things anyday. Love you Casey!

After a week of being sick, Samarah finally smiled at me for the first time since she has been sick. My world feels right again.

THEN: Baby Blues NOW: The greatest thing in life

So i like blogs that have pics along with the post some people don't like reading a whole lot but like to look at pics. But I want to write whats on my mind and it does not have any pictures.

As much as I hate to say it, when Samarah was born, I had the baby blues. I did not bond with her. I wasn't happy about having a baby. I was not excited to come home from work to see her. It was a crappy feeling! When she was about 2 months old, one day it just went BAM and hit me out of nowhere,  I LOVED HER! I called Chris in tears because i was so happy to feel it. I had just been driving around work and all of a sudden i was so excited to get off work because i couldn't wait to see her and from then on it only got better. Now it is the most intense love and she is the most amazing thing ever. I can't imagine going through the full Post Partum, having the baby blues was bad enough.

We have been fortunate in the fact that Samarah has not really been sick. She has had a few mild fevers but nothing major. Right now Samarah is SO sick. I can't believe how much it seriously tears my heart apart. I know every mother who has had a sick baby has experienced this but wow. I ache so bad and want to take it all from her and it hurts me that i can't. She started coughing and getting a fever on Saturday night, she started projectile vomiting all fluids we tried to put in her belly, including tylenol. (by the way, i now DEFINITLEY know the difference between spitting up and throwing up.) I took her into the doctor on Sunday and she had a temp of 104 and hadn't kept any fluids down for 12 hours. they just said moniter her and give her small portions instead of large amounts to see if she can hold them down. She was able to hold down half an ounce and not throw it up.

Her voice was hoarse and she was weak she wouldn't stand up which she loves to do, her head kept drooping like she didn't have the strength to hold it up. She just cried and cried and was so miserable. Her fever finally broke on Monday thank goodness but she still wasn't eating and she didn't hardly eat on Tuesday either. Chris got her to eat some peas but she wouldn't drink milk. It was so hard to see my baby not being her happy self. a part of me seriously felt broken.

Now its Wednesday and its like the symptoms switched. She has a horrible mucousy cough and when she starts coughing she gags so hard and almost chokes herself. I slept on the floor by her crib last night so i could hear her breathing. I went in this morning to check on her and snot had run out of her nose, down her face onto her neck and even on her clothes and it had dried up. Now she has watery eyes and is sneezing and huge streams of snot come out when she sneezes.

I teared up the other night when she was just crying and crying because i wanted to bad to just take her pain away. When I first had her, i would have told you having a baby sucked. Now i tell you its hard but the most amazing thing ever. This is my first experience with her being sick and i know not my last but my heart aches for her. I love her more than anything and I hope that she gets better soon.

First nice day adventure!

So the weather the last few days has been amazing! absolutely perfect weather. We decided to take a walk up the canyon now that Samarah is bigger and loves looking around and is interested in everything.

We don't do much together because of our work schedules so we really have like NO pictures of the 3 of us or really any pics of either of us with Samarah. So we got some today!

Family pic! Some guy walking up there said 'Aww, she looks like an easter egg!' we were like, easter egg, WTF? lol

Takin steps like a big girl!

Going for a ride on that puppy!!!

It wasa much needed get out of the house day.. especially for that pupppy who has been dying for attention/exercise since Samarah came into the world. Can't wait to do more!

Happy St. Patricks Day!

She looked so cute in her Shamrock St. Patricks Day Jammies.. AND she can pretty much almost sit up all by herself without tipping over!